I wanted to start off by talking about my goal in life. I really think it has taken me 18 years to figure it out. My goal in life is to make a difference. I want to impact people and make a difference in their lives. I love helping others and by helping others, I learn so much about myself. Every conversation I have with someone is an opportunity. I love hearing people's stories and how they came to be who they are today. Honestly, I just love to listen. It is so intriguing to me to learn about a person and what makes them who they are. I love to have coffee with people and talk for hours.
Today I had coffee with a good friend. We talked about God and having Christ centered relationships. This friend and I don't usually have serious conversations. We usually mess around and act stupid together. But today I learned that I adore talking about God with others. I really think it is a way to build a relationship with not only that person but with God, too. By growing and learning together, it makes both relationships stronger. I think having a friendship that is strong on both the serious side and the comedic side is a pretty great friendship.
I want to make an impact. I want to learn and grow as a person by hearing and learning from others. I want to challenge my friends as they challenge me. I want to know that when I leave this earth, I have done my absolute best. I want to leave a legacy. What will my legacy be? That is something I will have to think about and decide what legacy I want to leave and how I will go about that.
I am leaving for college in the fall. I am moving from a small town to the big city. I am pumped. At the same time, I am nervous. This is my chance to start over and really connect with people and make a difference. I have lived here my whole life. I have made many mistakes. I have learned so much. I can use what I learned from living here and apply it to my life in New York.
I realize that this blog is sort of a mumble jumble mess and completely random. But as my night went on and I was thinking about my life, I realized that I need to do more. I need to create a legacy and start impacting people's lives. I'm not out to save the world but I think by impacting others, I will learn so much! I want to learn more about people. I want to build relationships with people that I wouldn't usually talk to. I need to get out of my comfort zone and start a life that has meaning.
I am a complete worry wart. I worry about everything. Today I was really worrying about some things. As I was worrying and being somewhat pathetic, a verse popped in my head.
"I have told you all of this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." John 16:33
I love this verse! In fact, I really want a tattoo of it. It is a reminder that there is no need to worry. God is in control. I truly believe that if I lean on him and grow closer to him, I will be able to make more of an impact.
The moral of this blog post is that I realize that I need to be doing more. I am here for a purpose and I need to be building relationships and stepping out of my comfort zone if I want to make a difference. It is nearly 1am..this is the second night in a row that I have stayed up late thinking. The juices are a flowing and so many thoughts are going through my head! I am a mix of emotions for what is going to come in the future--but I am excited to see what God has in store.
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