Fighting With The Ones We Care For The Most

This has been making me crazy for the past couple of months. Why do we fight and argue with the people we care about the most? I have heard different theories and thoughts but this is what I came up with. It is because we know that they will love us no matter what. A good friend and I have been at it for basically since we became friends. We fight over stupid things and it drives me nuts. We are two different people and have complete opposite opinions. Somebody asked me "If you two fight so much, then why are you friends?" To be honest, I don't know. It would be easy to just say forget it. But I don't want to because we have had just as many great times as we had bad ones. And the great times over write the bad. I think we continue to be stubborn people because we care about each other and we know that we will always have each other's back. It is how we work. We fight, we make up. It is an on going cycle. Now some of you might say "Well that isn't very healthy." And you are probably right. It isn't. But I think the most important thing is that we get through...every single time. Everyone fights with the people they care about. Whether it is your parents, a husband, a wife, a boyfriend, a girlfriend, or like in my case a best friend. It is bound to happen. I think the most important thing to do is to just dwell on all of the good times you had together and not live with holding a grudge. I admit, I do that as well. Like I will say "You really hurt me when you did this..." And the truth of the matter is, that happened a year ago. It is time to move on.

So basically the moral of this blog is to forgive and cherish the people you care about even when you fight and argue.

One Day That Will Be Me

College. I talk about it a lot. Yesterday I went to visit Messiah College. I went there expecting just to learn more about the college. Well sure I learned more but I fell in love with it. My older sister told that when she went to visit the college she now goes to for the first time she felt like it was a perfect fit. That is how I felt yesterday. I learned about the clubs, the nursing major, the Christian background, and that they try to lure high school students in by handing out free stuff. I also learned that I can go to New Zealand for a semester as a nursing student. NEW ZEALAND! Minus the 32 hour flight, it sounds pretty fantastic. Messiah isn't the only college that I've been looking at. Infact it was like last on my list for the longest time. There are pros and cons to this school as with every college. Con #1: I know TONS of people who want to go there. Pro #1: Ditto. I always thought in college I would start over. No one would have preconceived ideas about me and I could start a new. New friends, new place, new everything. Yet some how I don't want to be alone in college. I know what I'm saying doesn't really make sense but I guess that is just how my brain works. I promised myself that I would go wherever God wants me. I just hope that I will base my choice on Him and not on my own selfish desires.
Honestly, I don't know what college I am going to. I don't know where I will end up. Maybe I will stay in the same state, maybe I will end up in Florida. Right now, I think I just need to trust and obey whatever God has in store for my life. :)

Growing Up and the Real World.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the future and just where I am in my life. My best friend and I were talking about this and I think it is absolutely crazy. We are growing up. It seems like just yesterday that we were jumping off his swing set in the backyard and tye dying tshirts with his mom. I can't believe that that was seven years ago. Now we are dealing with significant others, finding colleges, and studying for the SAT. Where did all of this time go? I'm graduating next year...next YEAR!! That blows my mind. To be honest, I am really nervous to leave home. This is where I'm from. I have had the same friends since I was born. It is going to be so strange to start over in a new place. So here is my awesome plan. One last trip before college. It is still a year and a half away but this is just what I'm thinking. A trip to the beach with all of my friends. Rent a house and just relax and be together before we all go our seperate ways. I don't know if this is going to happen but it sounds good in my head! :)
In my last blog I was talking about my friends. I really do think that I will be friends with them for the rest of my life. Sure we won't be as close but I think I will always stay in contact with them. I plan on going to college at a school that is over a thousand miles away. So I will only get to see my friends a few times a year. I think that is going to be so hard. The future is a scary thing. But I think I need to embrace it instead of being scared of it. I can't dwell on the bad things about being a grown up. So this is my goal. Before I leave for college I want to stop fearing the future and instead, get excited about it. This is a totally random blog but I dont care. It is just what was on my mind. :)