My Book...Say Whaaaaat?

That's right. I'm writing a book. There isn't a title yet but that is something I think I will come up with once the book is completed. Some of you may have seen my post on facebook announcing the book project but that was a while ago and to be honest, I am not even close to being done. I am thinking this may take a year or two to complete. I didn't think the writing process would be so difficult. I guess I should tell you all what the book is about first--well, me. People have told me for years that I should write a book since at such a young age, I already have so many life experiences. I think for me, it is more of a way to reach out to other people who have gone through what I have gone through. I want the book to be a sort of tell all--things that even my parents and my best friends don't know. I want it to be my way of helping others and letting those people know that they aren't alone and they can fight through any struggle they have and turn it around for good. I have fought through many struggles and have experienced many things that people my age don't usually experience; but I always refused to be a victim. Okay, maybe not always, there was that one time that I really didn't think I could get through what I was going through. (You will have to read the book to find out what that is!) The point is, this book is a way for me to not be the victim but to be resilient. To say "yeah, I have experienced all of these things but I am a more empathetic, strong, and mature person because of it". It also is a way to say "screw you" to all of those people who have been the cause of my struggles and hard experiences. As I continue to write this book, I realize that it is a sort of therapy for me, as well. But with that, it is also hard to dig back into those emotions during those hard times. I want people to feel all kinds of emotions while they are reading. I want them to laugh, to cry, to be angry, to be happy, to just.. relate to me and feel how I felt during specific moments in my life. I don't know how many people will read my book--it may not going anywhere and just be my family. But I'm not in it to get loads of readers and fans or whatever. I am doing it so I can outreach to others, even if it is just one person. Also, how cool would it be for my grandkids and great grandkids to have something to tell them who their grandmother or great grandmother was? That would be pretty awesome.
It is going to be a journey. Writing a book isn't easy and I have gained so much more respect for authors. It is also an emotional journey as I channel those feelings again as I write about what exactly happened in my various experiences and struggles. But I'm in it. And I have a great person who agreed to edit it and look over the various parts of the book as I finish. She was the amazing producer for my episode of "What Would You Do?" and knows what a good story is. It will be great to have her look over my drafts...when I have a draft...
Maybe I should go back to writing now.